I know it has been a while since I've posted, but I haven't really been inspired in a while. Today I saw some note thing on Facebook about 25 things you didn't know about me so I thought I would compose a list about 25 things that you might not have known about me since cancer.

1) I have a more or less constant ringing in my ears, so if you are talking to me I sometimes can't hear what you are saying. Sometimes I ask you to repeat what you said multiple times & sometimes I act like I heard you because I heard enough to get the gist.

2) I have horrible balance now. I seriously feel like I'm drunk though I have not been drinking.

3) I have short-term memory issues. I think this is Eryck's favorite side effect at times. We can have an argument and hours later I don't remember what it was about so I can't be angry anymore!

4) Don't say, that's ok you won't remember this anyway, that is when I do remember. (Adrya, I'm still upset about my welcome mat!)

5) I remember 3 words the Dr. told me to remember over a year ago (airplane, sandwich, & nickel) but I can't remember why I walked into a room.

6) All of my long-term memories are intact so I don't mind as much about the short term.

7) I have lists about EVERYTHING!!!! If it is not on my list, I won't remember it. If, God forbid, I were to lose my lists, it would feel like my world is ending. I currently have 3 lists on my desk.

8) I have other visual reminders throughout the house for things that I may forget. For example, I have a note on the fridge that I put up when I feed Joe so Eryck knows that I've done it. It is pointless to ask me, I won't remember if I did or not.

9) I sometimes check to see if the doors are locked multiple times because I get distracted and don't remember if I have checked or not or if they were or not.

10) I have to have take pills on my list and cross it off when done or I don't remember if I did or not.

11) I have found that I am better at remembering things that I see than that I hear. If Eryck writes down that he needs coffee creamer and I see it, I'm more likely to remember it when I am out than if he just says "I need coffee creamer" (This does not apply to a normal store run, I can guarantee you there are lists for that)

12) I forget to eat. especially lunch. I should probably start putting that on my list of things to do. I always forget to eat lunch. Breakfast is easy, I've always loved breakfast and it is shortly after I get up. Dinner is at a set time and it starts being cooked when we feed Joe (He is on a schedule with an alarm set). Lunch is not scheduled or on a list. It often gets forgotten until my body says "I'm out of energy get something NOW!"

13) I dislike eating in general now. I never thought I would say that statement. Food seriously annoys me. I don't like it. If I could, I would stop eating altogether. (Nothing to do with body issues, it is more of a food issue)

14) There is one kind of cereal I do like so breakfast is good, but it has to be that type and brand of cereal. It is a generic brand at Aldi and the name brand makes me sick. I could seriously eat this all day and be ok with it. It is ALWAYS my go to. I will brave the weather for it if I am out of it.

15) I can no longer eat any form of Cheerios. I think I got sick from them too many times that now my body automatically rejects them.

16) Same thing happens with cottage cheese. I only lost it once though so I don't know why.

17) I can't eat eggs. I think it is the same reason as the cheerios. Especially scrambled eggs. Now, even the smell makes me sick. I miss scrambled eggs. I can occasionally eat a deviled egg or plain hard boiled eggs. I have to be careful though, it is not always a good idea.

18) I can usually eat Macaroni Salad now. It took a while for that. I can not eat Potato Salad though. I can eat potatoes though so I don't understand that at all.

19) Did I mention, I hate eating? Lunch is the worst meal of the day. I HATE lunch! As previously mentioned that I often forget it so by the time I remember I have no desire to make anything so I usually have cereal. This makes me nervous because I worry about running out of cereal or milk before my grocery run. I can't handle not having the one cereal I can eat on hand. Even on the rare occasion I do remember, I often choose cereal anyway because nothing sounds good.

20) Sweets are a different story. I can eat sweets. I think one of the reasons I survived cancer was because of Susie Chaffin's brownies that she made me. I can eat sweets with no problem. It is real food that gives me issues.

21) I also really like pancakes. I love when we do breakfast for dinner! This does not include syrup. Syrup makes me sick (It always has), but now the smell does too.

22) I'm scared of losing my Social Security. I had to renew the papers before Christmas (Great Christmas gift) and I still haven't heard back. I wouldn't mind going back to work, but I don't think I can yet. I haven't thought of a single job that I could do successfully right now.

23) Most of my day consists of puttering around the house and doing things to try and get back to the way I was before I got sick or at least cope with the way things are now. I am trying to perfect my list system so I can deal with the memory thing. I'm trying to learn new things so I can learn how to remember things. I am also trying work on my balance.

24) This list was both easier and harder to make than I thought it would be.

25) I forgot to eat so I need to go have breakfast now that it is almost lunchtime.  Yet another reason lunch bothers me.